Since becoming a new mom I’ve found my time seems to escape me, or in other terms my time is just very much not my own anymore. I’m constantly focusing on everything that needs to be done, and the manner, time and circumstances it has to be done in for the picture in my head to work out the way I want it to.
But every day it just does not go as planned and for a while now I’ve allowed that to largely influence my day, my planning and most of all my running.
“Perfection s a virus, a tumor, a growth it infect the mind of the person it attaches itself to, until it eventually destroys the host.” – Prince Ea
We all have a picture in our minds of how we expect our run to go, our day to start or to end. Some of us need to start our day with a run, and that sets our day up for success. Some of us need our Run’s to shut down our days. Either way we set standards for ourselves, general margins of errors that we are willing to allow to influence us before we feel like it has all just been a waste.
For me not getting enough sleep at night largely influences my run. It’s a mental exhaustion that clouds my judgement and make me think that it is not possible for me to go for a run, makes me feel like I’m too tired for my run. When I actual fact I’m fine, and my run is actually the thing that I need to make my day perfect in its own way.
As humans we focus so much on this word perfect – and some of us might say we don’t – but we do, whether it’s our own type of perfect of that standards of society and after watching a video by Prince Ea I realized that I have to stop focusing on everything that goes wrong and just focus on going with the flow – just adapt to the situation, accept it for what it is and move forward.
So some days I’ll run tired and some days I’ll run energized. The idea is to adapt my training to my life style, the life style that I have now, not the one I used to have, and some days just give myself a break, because my idea of perfect is not gonna happen, not with JHB traffic, and especially not with a baby. I’m going to stop focusing on this idea that I have in my head of how things should happen, because it’s basically just making me feel like a failure, making me feel like I’m not achieving what I should, and Like Prince Ea says in the video “Perfection s a virus, a tumor, a growth it infect the mind of the person it attaches itself to, until it eventually destroys the host.”
So let’s stop focusing on something the doesn’t exist and lets focus on what’s happening now, and lets live a little more in the moment. We are who we are and every little event in our day and every circumstance of our actions makes us who we are.
“Have no fear of perfection, Because you’ll never reach it!” – Salvador dali
So I’m gonna enjoy my run because I love running and it exhilarates me every time, on days I run a pace of 5:30 and on days I run 8:00. I’ll accept them all because going for a run despite all the things that can go wrong is what makes me, me.
Have a look at the Video below – Leave a comment and let me know what you think!
Hope you enjoyed this post and that is made a little sense to you, I think some days we all just need a reminder to rather focus on keeping up with ourselves rather that others!